Well I did it to myself again.......went out last night..( my girlfriend just went on vacation for two weeks) got real drunk after work stumbled home....passed out.....awoke this morning to that modern english song .........now I'm forced to rehash every blurry moment and ask myself (how did I get Here?) if I did anything to embarass me or any one of my friends....I don't think so.......phones not ringing..... Man why do I have to hurt myself so....a hurt compounded by the newl forming attachment to nicotine while drinking.......am I falling apart or just having a "good time"..........chinese food is here must think.....